I want to break the silence within me
Collecting words inside
Feeding my soul but it’s never enough
How can I let go of the emptiness that still remains.
I imagine a time that is yet to come
When I lie beside myself
It’s hard to think beyond the smoke
That encapsulates me in it.
There is a fire burning in my head
My heart filled with ashes of the remains
The stomach is crunching, making sounds to let go
While the feet just go with the flow.
It’s a warning sign which I never seem to understand
Annoying me so much I can’t think straight
Everywhere I go I wait for a moment that might change things
But end up nowhere or the same state as always.
I lie between me and myself
A window opens up inside
The lines are clear, it’s either left or right
What if I want to go back or front and not be the one to pretend?
Where did I go wrong? Where did I turn?
I am standing still but still lost somewhere
How do I figure what I need? What is it that I want?
When life is drifting away to a place I don’t want to see.